March 2, 2005

**Hungrycookpot** · March 3rd, 2005, 12:20 AM

I feel very strange right now. I feel like I should feel something, but I don't? My grandpa died tonight, about 3 hours ago. I hadn't seen him in a month or more, because I've been working mostly every waking hour, and because he had just moved into the retirement home. My mom called me at work today to say to come home tonight, because he was really sick, and thats all I knew. But when I heard that he had died, I didn't feel bad at all? I still don't. And I feel strange because I probably should feel something. He had become increasingly distant from everyone tho for the past couple years, I guess just from senility, but partly they suspect from alzhiemers too. So perhaps I had already let go of the grandparent I had known from my childhood, only gradually so that I didn't notice it.

Well, I just thought I had to say that to someone, boo hoo me, theres my sympathy thread for the year.

**GiPilot12** · March 3rd, 2005, 12:24 AM

I give you my condolance look on the bright side, he lived a full and happy life watching you grow up, God liked him so much he couldnt stop himself from calling him now

**GroundZero3** · March 3rd, 2005, 12:27 AM

He is in a better place HCP

what your feeling i think is normal. Perhaps you should talk some with your mom?

**Hungrycookpot** · March 3rd, 2005, 12:31 AM

Naw I don't really talk to my family. I'm sure I'll be fine, I just felt I needed to say some things.

I do have alot of good memories of him, like his always having a few small chocolate bars for me when I came over to visit. He loved chocolate. And I remember he would almost always have a new toy every time I saw him. He loved to collect those kind of brain teaser toys that you find in flea markets, the wooden blocks or ropes that you couldn't get apart, but he always could.

**willy_ph** · March 3rd, 2005, 12:39 AM

I know how you feel Hungry. My Grandfather is sitting in a retirement home in Ajax at the moment awaiting death. He suffers from Alzheimers so he is far from the man that I once knew; to the point where he can't remember me, nor my other cousins and siblings. Personally, I doubt I'll feel anything when the time comes. More than anything I'll be relieved that it is over.

My condolences to you and your family.